Everyone’s experience is different, but actor Elliot Page says he always knew he was a boy.

The Juno, Inception and Umbrella Academy star said he ‘100 percent’ knew he was a boy when he was a toddler.

He also said he now feels ‘really able to just exist’.

The star revealed he was trans back in December last year. He posted the news on Instagram, and was overjoyed by the positive reaction.

The statement said: “I love that I am trans. And I love that I am queer. And the more I hold myself close and fully embrace who I am, the more I dream, the more my heart grows and the more I thrive.”

In a new interview with Vanity Fair, Page tols Thomas Page McBee about his experience growing up.

He said he could never figure out why adults kept telling him he wasn’t a boy.

Interview

McBee, who is also trans, told Page that he didn’t feel he was born in the wrong body but was born in a trans body.
He asked Page if he had the same experience. 

Page replied: “All trans people are so different, and my story’s absolutely just my story.

“But yes, when I was a little kid, absolutely, 100 per cent, I was a boy. I knew I was a boy when I was a toddler.

“I was writing fake love letters and signing them ‘Jason’. Every little aspect of my life, that is who I was, who I am, and who I knew myself to be.

“I just couldn’t understand when I’d be told, ‘No, you’re not. No, you can’t be that when you’re older.

You feel it. Now I’m finally getting myself back to feeling like who I am, and it’s so beautiful and extraordinary, and there’s a grief to it, in a way.”

Change

There is one thing Page would love to do, if he could.

He would want to say something to himself as a child. He said would himself – or any other trans child –  ‘tell them that they were 100% real’.

“I would tell myself I was exactly who I saw myself as, and felt myself as, and knew myself as,” he added.

Page also talked about how he’s ‘really able to just exist’.

He told McBee: “I would imagine you’ll understand where I’m coming from – just exist by myself, like be able to sit with myself.

“Not have some constant distraction, all these things that aren’t conscious or aren’t even overly overt.

For the first time in, I don’t even know how long, [I am] really just being able to sit by myself, be on my own, be productive, and be creative.

It’s such an oversimplification to say it this way, but I’m comfortable.

“I feel a significant difference in my ability to just exist – and not even just day to day, but moment to moment.

Instagram

In another Instagram post, Elliot has shared a clip of an interview with Oprah Winfrey.

He captioned it: “My feelings aren’t really linear. I feel emerging joy and excitement one moment, and then in the next, profound sadness reading about people wanting to take gender-affirming health care away from children.”

“I feel so grateful to be at this place in my life, and I want to use the strength I have to help in all the ways that I can.”

“How can I feel grateful for my joy, and embrace my joy, and allow myself to have that joy—but then put that joy and that love into action?

Elliot also revealed in the last few months that he is getting a divorce, and has also undergone top surgery that he described as “lifesaving.”

Congrats, Elliot. 

Image via Elliot Page/Instagram